10 thoughts on “Holding My Breath

      1. True enough.
        It mainly jumped to mind because they mentioned it in my news briefing this morning and I connected it to your waiting for the year to end.

        Apparently they narrowed it down as the reason some people lose their sense of smell.

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  1. Yeah 2020 sucked overall but I’m not ready to just chuck it in the bin and move on. A lot of good things happened for me too.
    I’m out of my parent’s house. My mother is still overbearing in the name of “what’s best for me,” but it’s hard for her to really lay into me when I have someplace to actually escape to. Come hell and high water, I managed to keep my D&D game running. My trans partner finally felt comfortable to start coming out to people. I managed to get my parents on board with that without there being a major screaming meltdown. Hell, my mom literally bought her a dress for Christmas. I never thought I’d see the day. I’m pregnant, and our first child will be born in the summer (frantically knocks on wood before the universe gets Ideas)
    Yeah, 2020 has been awful. I barely see my friends, Zoom is nice and phone calls are great, but I miss person to person interaction. I miss being able to go out to the store to shop without a mask. Not being able to have my fiance at my prenatal checkups REALLY sucks. But I’m going to hold on to the good things that happened this year instead of dwelling on the terrible ones. Buy a bottle of sparkling white grape juice on the way to my double and toast a better year to come. Because at the end of 2019 I was struggling against increasingly intrusive suicidal thoughts and you know what? I’m not there anymore. And even in this hellscape of a year, I think that’s worth celebrating.

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    1. *Thumbs up!* Congratulations!

      I’ll probably feel better about this year once we can finally get the house sold and the money divided among the heirs so the personal mess of 2020 is finally finished.

      Until then, just keeping on, and hoping the plotbunnies finally calm down enough from the move to start serious writing again. 🙂

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      1. Thank you! We don’t know the gender yet but I’m hoping for a girl. Mostly because I come from a household of nothing but daughters and a son is a little intimidating because of that. Anything involving legal stuff is awful. The fact that it was a hoarder house by your description of it makes things ten times worse. Good luck getting that unloaded and good riddance to it!

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